It's hard to believe that today is the first day of September. Fall is upon us and I don't feel quite ready. I love September. It's my favorite month...also because it's my birthday month, and well, quite frankly I LOVE birthdays. Especially mine. But this year it has snuck up on me, and I'm not quite sure what to do with September.
I woke up Saturday morning at my parents house, to a foggy field view. (Thus all the pictures.) To me, it's a magical time when the seasons begin to transition. Everything changes, and seems full of mystery...and there is fog. I love fog, it reminds me of fairy tale books for some reason.
But I woke up, eyes still blood shot and exhausted from the day before to this beautiful view. I stumbled out of bed...found my shoes...mumbled something about photos as I passed my Mom and went out the back door. While I shot, I began to wake up. The cool crisp air made me realize that summer is gone...and somehow I feel like I missed it.
I am determined not to do the same with September. Don't get me wrong, it's going to be a busy month. I have two, possibly three, weddings to do with Rebecca Claire Photography. I have to get my tonsils removed. And I have several senior portraits lined up. Not to mention just the day to day working. Speed Racer also has a ton of travel ahead of him this month, so that just makes us busy. So I already feel like I'm letting it slip by.
Usually by now I already have my birthday list sent out (at times I have sent it out in July...yeah, I'm that kid). But I haven't done it yet, and each time I try to I just seem to get discouraged. Speed Racer wistfully asked what I wanted for my birthday this year, and for once I said, "I just don't know."
Unlike most people who say that who are modest and not greedy people, I did not say it because I don't want presents, I think I said it out of exhaustion. There are MANY things that I want, but none of them seem to come in gift form...or affordable gifts at that. I want time away. Just for me and Speed Racer. I want to buy practical things that make dumb presents. I want to figure out things. I want to be surprised. Stuff like that.
But the great thing about fall is that it always seems full of new prospects to me. Unlike Spring, fall to me is a time to hunker down with a good book outside, and spend some quality time. Even if this fall is busy, I know it's going to be a good one. I'm taking fall back.